Memento of a Fat Guy #6 [25 Jul 2007|03:17pm] So this was a post previously put up on my Facebook. I figure since I haven't written anything interesting on this thing in the past year, I must as well put this up here too. I'd like to get a response just to see what you have to say. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okay so first off, little children, why must you harass my mini-feed with new notes filled with surveys and Q&A? Welp, just so people have something interesting to read and to go against this trend of insignificant notes (hey man...writing a note about the power rangers...is pretty badass), I shall write a useful blog for a change that perhaps, you'd take the time to read and ponder about one day; maybe as you read this...or possibly while you take a crap later on today... *Ahem. It's been a while since I've written a long blog...or even written for that matter (ah, yep, it sure is nice to be out of school). So I call this - Memento of a Fat Guy #6: The Surreal Life For the past three weeks, I've been on the other end of the country (wEssT SyDe RePrEzeNt!!) away from Toronto, and it's been good. It sure as hell has been quite long now that I think of it - what has only been weeks actually feels like months. Nevertheless, even though I've been spending my summer away from friends, wishing I had a job and working my rap game (just kidding), this vacay has allowed me to do a lot of thinking and reflecting. Sounds fun right? Hells yeah! Aside from posting my infamous mementos on facebook about the amazing craps I've taken (ironically, i've hand written this blog before-hand while taking my morning poo...seriously), I've managed to spend a lot of alone time with God. Oh shit, that's deep right? Trussssss me, it goes beyond that, styllzz! Lately, I've been having this calling to truly embark on this journey to seek God. It probably sounds whack at first for those not-so-religious folks, so it's probably hard for you to embrace it. But on the real, I figure if you live a life of God, you have nothing to lose, right? I mean, I should already know this being a leader in a youth group, and I do - but it's actually doing it and giving God a chance first. Ya dig? I was told that I should spend at least fifteen minutes each day praying. I mean, that's cool and all, but shouldn't we spend every second, every day, and every moment with God? I know it's crazy but think about it, people these days devote their lives to celebrities and catching them at their next concert or if they show up at MuchMusic for MOD. I just think it's amazing how with today's society and with today's "celeb-obsessed" culture, celebrities have so much influence on us, but God has so little. I think people are just so obsessed with the surreal life of a celebrity. Then we find out that - holy shit, T.I. takes a crap too! no freaking way! - and oddly enough, we get that much more interested. The other day I was at the grocery store and I'm looking at US Weekly. On the cover they're making this big deal about how Janet Jackson gained 30 lbs. C'mon, is it really that important to know that she's now a big botty gyal? Man, I just think it's crazy how fame can get you the most amount of unnecessary attention. Now, imagine if people just paid that much attention to God. It's funny how we only turn to God when we really need something, or want it. But truth is suckas, the more we want something, the more we won't get it. That's just how nature is. In relation to my time away from home, I've been able to rid of those distractions back in Toronto and do something I've always wanted to do - that is, be with God. Through that, I've been able to simply listen and reflect. I believe that God doesn't choose for us to know him, rather he gives us that choice. It's either we want to know God or we don't. I used to think that to go to heaven it's all about doing the good thing and straying away from sin. Yes, I do believe that but I think God wants us to sin. I mean, if we were all perfect, if we all never sinned, would we even have a need to pray or know God? People don't really take the time to thank God, so what more if we didn't sin? There would be no reason for some of us to even pray. I read from someone that all of his life he's been told who God is. I agree. I didn't choose this religion. I didn't necessarily choose to be confirmed. I kinda just did it because everybody else did and I thought I had to. It was the Catholic thing to do. Our teachers, parents, and priests teach us and tell us who God is. So I think right now, for me, I'm just trying to figure out who God is on my own, and I think that is what God's calling me to do. Forget what I know and know that I know nothing at all, but to rely on the one thing I do know and trust the most. It's crazy right, and no doubt it's surreal. I think it's cool and all that celebs are getting together for LiveEarth and the Flick Off movement. I'm pretty sure when the person who first decided to found Flick Off didn't say to himself, "Okay, so this is what we're gunna do. we're gunna make a bunch of tshirts right, a few ads and commercials, and from there we'll change the world in ten years." Obviously not right! I mean, the idea of changing the world in ten years is a crazy ass thought. But hey, God calls us to do some crazy things; and notice it's only the crazy things that matter and really affect people? I'm not saying I want to be a priest and completely devote myself, but let's just say I'm making movements, but for God. The celeb life sure is surreal, but they're just ordinary people. How often do you see kids or teens wanting to find God. With all the crazy things God calls us to do, it's not hard to say that a life with God is the real surreal life. 1 AY BAY BAY!

I just had a lot on my mind.. [03 Aug 2006|10:34pm] This was made really for myself, but I know a lot of what's going on with me easily hits home with a lot of people, and I know a lot of people can relate to this. Take the time to read this bloody long entry if you'd like, but just remember that everyone holds to their own opinion, and if you'd like to share them feel free to leave a comment. So, here I go. This one goes out to all those people living with "drama". Honestly, you only have "drama" cuz you surround yourself with it. You surround yourself with such negative things. You fall into crap like smoking, drugs and alcohol because you think life is so horrible. Why don't you take a look around you and see that you're just making it worse for yourself? There's so much more to life then the "daily drama" that you go through. Instead of being so hard on yourself because of the crap you experience everyday, think about the good things that happen in your life. If things are so horrible, why make it worse? Why not go out and do something good with yourself, and make up for all the negatives you get. Sitting around, sulking, blaming yourself and people for what goes on will get you nowhere. Whether it's your friends, family, a job, a boyfriend or girlfriend, if you lose it all who's the one person that will always be there? God. Think about the countless blessings God has given you regardless of what goes on. Yeah I'm sure some people get it harder than others, and it's easier said then done. But honestly it's all about making the right decision. It's either you sit around getting mad at the world and get yourself nowhere, or you do something about it and realize that, you know what? The only drama I should be a part of is in drama class. This one goes out to all those people who made that one huge mistake. So you happen to be the real good friend that everyone goes to for advice. You're different from all the guys or girls in certain people's eyes. You're one of those people who hardly ever make mistakes, and if you do it's probably those little mistakes that can easily be forgiven. But for once in your perfect life, you make a huge mistake, and suddenly everything's gone wrong. You suddenly become a typical person. You're no longer as respectable or unique in people's eyes. You feel like this one mistake has changed your life. Well, you know what, you're wrong. Realize that you're freaking human, and this goes out to those people who seem to hold the longest grudges ever because somebody made a mistake. It's all about acceptance. For the person that did wrong, accept your wrongdoing and know that you were wrong for doing it. People make mistakes, it happens. You move on and you learn from it. Don't get yourself down and feel like people won't ever think the same of you, because honestly, if those people were your true friends, they'd forgive you for anything that you did and see that you're still the same person they know no matter how many times, how big, or how bad you messed up. As long as you realize and accept the fact that you did wrong, there's nothing more you can do. For the person that can't seem to forgive, nobody's perfect. Everyone makes mistakes, even you do and you know it. I'm pretty sure Gandhi, the Pope, and probably even Jesus made mistakes too. Take in what happened, see that the person understands what they did and they've done all they can, and just let go and put it behind you. I'm pretty sure forgiveness isn't exactly the easiest thing to do, but sometimes it's the only thing to do. Nobody ever said letting go and moving on is easy. Whether it's moving on from a mishap that happened, from a relationship that ended off bad, or from a friendship that went down the drain because feelings got in the way. Sometimes it takes a sacrafice to realize the good things in life. No matter how hard you may hate a person for hurting you, it's either you just put them in your past or you just move on and fix things with them. Take your time, time is the best healer. But it's what you do in that time that matters. Don't use that time to be miserable, because really, that's just a waste of time. And finally, this one goes out to all those people who think emotions, feelings & relationships are the most important things in life. I see this all the time, especially with my own friends. Let me ask you one simple question, "How old are you?". Honestly, we're young, we have so many years ahead of ourselves for this. We shouldn't be focusing on crap like that when we have more important things like family, school, or even work in front of us. People are so focused on those things and they get so bummed out because of it. Heck, I'd be a hypocrite to say I've never done this, but almost everyone I know falls into this category. But you know what? I learned that there really is so, so, so much more than this. There's so many other things to focus on and worry about. The saying "love is patient" doesn't necessarily mean waiting for that one person to finally like you, it means be patient with love. Let love take its time. You may meet your true love when you were eight, fifteen, thirty-six, or you may not even meet them till you're sixty-five. The fact of the matter is, you have all the time in the world, and all the love you should have right now is the love of your friends, family & God, because really, that's the best love in the world. Keep strong, take care & God bless. - JEARL! 102 AY BAY BAY!

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